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Saturday, June 18th, 2005
9:27 pm	I need some kind of cable. My gran's fine. In fact, more than that, her recovery is scarily, inexplicably fast. Tuesday, hip replacement, I mean having your bone replaced with metal is a pretty heavy going thing...3 days later she is walking, and on JUST paracetamol. And she feels fine. Looks like she'll come home on sunday. Very good news, but quite weird too... Thanks to jon when he came round, I've been making recording of myself on my keyboard. This is extremely helpful as playing when I know I'm being recorded makes me nervous like when I play in front of people, and so if I can get over it using that, that would be great. Plus I can slow myself right down and pick up on small mistakes. And I can layer it and therefore do the pedal part of organ pieces! However the keyboard can only store 2 pieces at once, so I need to get some kind of cable to upload myself and have MIDIs on the computer. But I have no idea what I would need. Any info from knowledgable folk would be appreciated. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
8:53 pm	It's alive! Time for a rather infrequent update. Firstly exams: Maths-felt good. Think of all of them this'll give me the best results of the four, so no worries. Biology-eeeh. Dunno. Better be at least an A though. Chemistry-This was pretty safe. Not worried about this one. English-well, it went ok but I think i'll do worst out of the four in this one based on ability. I'm hoping for a low or medium A. The party on saturday was ok, not hyperactively amazing but a nice gathering. And the photos are good too. How I crave BBQ dominos. Next shows in 3 weeks, better...err...learn it... The exams took away my appetite, now it's come back with a vengance, which is great. I like eating. Organ, pootling along, learning a trio in my lesson (some invention by a guy called Gerber *shrug*) and a prelude on the side (a nice rather easy one, BWV 556 for any bach lovers who might read this...). S'going ok. Bring on...getting better. My grans gone into hospital tonight to have a hip replacement. The familys all worried. It should be fine, but theres always a risk, especially as she has a bad heart. But yes, should be fine. I believe, that may be all. Current Mood: tired (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
12:06 pm	Phil's Interview. 1. Name one moment that you think radically changed you as a person. Tough one...don't really know. Can't remember anything of note. 2. Magic Missile or Chromatic Orb? Magic missile, no question. Not only with the decreased speed rate and the enormous damage potential through minor sequencers, but theres a bug so that they actually do 2D3 damage rather than 1D4+1! Have we geeked everyone out enough now? (Sam gets it, Sam gets it all...) 3. We know you're not gonna be anywhere near where you want to be at 30, how much d'you think you'll fail? Enough that I'll be no less sarcastic than I am now. 4. You have the option to live forever in the prime of your life, completely invincible, but you're never able to die, ever. Do you accept? The idea of free floating in space unable to die, or move or breathe after the sun goes supernova doesn't appeal. Nor watching everyone I know inevitably die. I think I'd go with no, in that particular series of events. 5. D'you button your shirt from top to bottom or bottom to top? Top to bottom. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
11:50 am	James' Interview. 1.If you could meet with one person from history, who would you choose and why? Maybe Eddisson. Or Einstein.I probably wouldn't have much to say. Either way I'd get an autograph. 2.If you had a goldfish, what would it's name be and why? Trevor, because it's the best name for a goldfish, ever. Actually, i've already had a goldfish called Trevor. If I had another one it would be called Graham. 3.You can choose one city to live in for the rest of your life. Where do you go? London. But only the very best bits. Penthouse suite etc. etc. If you mean somewhere more realisticand less luxurious, then posibly somewhere like Vancouver in Canada. 4.Where do you seriously see yourself at the age of 30, and how does this differ from your ideal position when you're 30? Um...I should have a PhD by then...hopefully either a scientist in some company or a lecturer at a university. I'll most likely be single. It differs from my ideal position in that I probably won't be a multi-millionaire. 5.You are told you have 24 hours to live. What do you do? Have an enormous party. No point in exiting alone and sober. (Comment on this)
12:48 am	Mike's interview. 1. How good are you at keeping secrets - your own or other peoples'? When it comes down to it, I am good at keeping secrets. With a trivial, short term one people might know that I know it, but they sure as hell won't get it out of me. If someone trusts me with something I take it to my grave. 2. Given your hardly idealistic (though not phenomenally cynical) thoughts about relationships - and correct me there if I'm wrong - if a possible relationship presented itself at whatever stage in the future, what would you do/think? God, um, really I don't think about things like that in those terms any more. I don't see the idea of a relationship for me being at all possible or plausable with anyone. I havn't 'liked' anyone like that in years,and I just don't feel comfortable with the idea of doing anything with anyone, odd as that may be considering my age. But to answer the question accurately, I wouldn't do anything, as I would most likely be too scared, and I would probably be totally confused as to what was actually happening... 3. What is your favourite period of history? I used to love ancient Egypt, knew a bit at the time, too. I love the georgian fashion sense, dahling...all those ruffles and cuffs and wonderfully tight trousers...hmm. In terms of science and stuff the victorians are cool too. 4. What is/are your dream pet(s)? Ironically considering how many we have, I would choose not to have one in the future. When Janie (the dog we've had longest) dies though it will hit me fairly hard I imagine. 5. In someone else's shoes, how would you see yourself? Probably rather spoilt, and sometimes grouchy and not nice to approach. I can also come across as rather cold I think. Don't know really. (Comment on this)
12:05 am	Ian's interview. 1. If the whole of the UK was about to sink for some reason and you had the only transport to get off the island but you could only take 3 people with you, who would you take and why? Hmm. Impossible question really. Too many people... 2. What was the last film you watched and really enjoyed? The Incredibles, got it on DVD on monday, really like it. Watched it every day since then. 3. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be and why? Couldn't pick one physical thing. Personality I'd make myself more independent and less timid. 4. If you could change one thing about somebody else, who would it be, what would it be and why? I would fix Sam's arm, based on our current situation. If that hadn't happened I'd do something along the lines of remove his spots, make Mike a little thinner or something, just something someone would appreciate. 5. What was the last video game you played? Worms armaggeddon. (Comment on this)
12:02 am	Interview me. This interview thing seems to be zooming around at the moment, and to make things easier rather than placing a comment on EVERYONE'S journals, i'll do this instead. Treat this post as an 'interview me' addressed to anyone who can be bothered to reply... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 6th, 2005
10:17 pm	I-can't-move! Oh my God. Best overeating ever. Me, Mike, and Ed were at Sam's house, and ordered 3 pizzas. They got it wrong, so we blagged another 2 for free. Ed had to go home and Sam wasn't too hungry. Me and Mike are now dying. Ed is too, as he then had to eat a rice based meal when he got home. There were only 9 slices left. He vommed and I didn't. (Hah)It was ridiculous, we seemed to be getting drunk on BBQ sauce. The dialogue was hilarious too. Mike might quote some when he can stand up. Current Mood: full (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
9:26 pm	Your Life Path Number Is 11 11 Your life path is greatly associated with spiritual awareness. As one of the two master numbers, the 11 yields understanding and knowledge beyond the grasp of others. The attitude toward life of those possessing this Life Path is somewhat extreme; extremely intuitive, avant-garde, idealistic, visionary, and cultured. These extremes make you an interesting, if unusual person, with much to offer society. The Life Path 11 person is deep-thinking, and you are no doubt interested in understanding many of life's mysteries and more intriguing facets. Your inventive mind and broad-minded views will permit you to succeed in life in any number of ventures. You can best serve society, however, in those endeavors utilizing your skills of counseling and guidance. Much of your idealism is people oriented and quite humanitarian in nature. You expect a great deal of yourself and of those to whom you are close. On the negative side, there is a lot of nervous tension associated with the 11 life path, and you can be a difficult person to deal with because of this. For this reason, relationships, at times, can be difficult. This is a Life Path that seems to feature broad mood swings between the elation and depression. You are likely to have trouble making decisions and getting your life in gear, so to speak. There is a tendency for the 11 to harbor feelings of uneasiness, and dissatisfaction with accomplishments and personal progress in life. Your grandiose schemes usually make sense, but you can get off the track and they can be very impractical. You have a very distinct side that lacks common sense, and you are quite often unable to distinguish between fantasy and reality. In this regard, you are perhaps more of a dreamer than a doer. When you do get on target, your ideas seem to have been inspired on high. Perhaps you are not a leader, but you are a visionary and a very talented idea person. What Is Your Life Path Number? (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
6:37 pm	Ganked from Alina Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)" Turquoise You have turquoise eyes. Turquoise is the color of communication. Your eyes symbolize your intuitive nature. You can be over-analytical sometimes, possibly fussy and egocentric. You have the tendency to push your heart out of the way and let logic make your decisions. You are not shy, but you can be secretive, closed, confused about what you want, and maybe a bit sneaky and paranoid at times. Some words to describe you: cool, refreshing, imaginative, motivated, dynamitic, calm, peaceful, joyful, relaxed, truthful, healing, meditation, tranquility, forgiving, patient, sleepy, and day-dreamer. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
9:10 pm	Oh noes! You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. </td> Suicide 87% Posion 60% Gunshot 60% Bomb 60% Natural Causes 40% Suffocated 40% Eaten 33% Drowning 27% Disease 27% Cut Throat 20% Disappear 20% Stabbed 20% Accident 13% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
7:45 pm	*Another* one of these things. Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||| 30% Stability |||||| 30% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63% Empathy |||||||||||||| 56% Interdependence |||||| 30% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76% Mystical |||||| 30% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63% Religious |||| 16% Hedonism |||||| 30% Materialism |||||||||||||||||| 76% Narcissism |||||||||||| 43% Adventurousness |||| 16% Work ethic |||||||||||||| 56% Self absorbed |||||| 30% Conflict seeking |||||| 23% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43% Romantic |||| 16% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Anti-authority |||||| 30% Wealth |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Individuality |||||||||||| 43% Sexuality || 10% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70% Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Food indulgent |||| 16% Histrionic |||| 16% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70% Female cliche |||||||||| 36% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com *shrugs* (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
12:36 am	Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer Your first full name Your personality rates a -10,000,000 damn you suck your best quality is you dont follow the crowd your worst quality is you think life sucks this is because Its who you are Quiz created with MemeGen! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
11:34 pm	Talent. Just been having a big conversation with Mike, and the only reason I'm typing on this is becuase he had to go offline and I wasn't ready to stop typing. I just feel like I don't particularly stand out. And it's all very well nice people coming and saying 'that's not true, you can do such and such etc. etc.', which does usually give a boost to the ego, but...well, I don't really know. It's not exactly easy to define what constitutes talent, I find at least. I just feel that I dabble in a lot of different things, music, theatre, art, the contrasting science school subjects. Well I guess that isn't many really, but it feels like it. I try fairly hard I think, and although I could try harder I do feel stressed out quite a bit sometimes. I find it very frustrating that no matter how much I enjoy a subject, and how hard I try at it, there will always be a lot of people who are better at it with either less effort, or less stress. I do feel that I am steadily learning and improving at stuff, but not fast enough for me. I do have high expectations of myself. I find it very difficult to write things like this journal post, because I get myself confused and sidetracked, and also worried about how I'm making myself sound. I would totally and utterly despise to sould like I am exaggerating, or being melodramatic, or just like I'm moaning. I'm also sorry that this post is totally egotistical in that all I'm talking about is myself. As it is, I can't see myself being able to fulfill any of what I want to get out of life, as my goals are probably ridiculously unrealistic. As an aside, the very common goal that so many people have of eventually finding that special someone in life at some point is not something I seriously consider, and havn't for a few years. I do not imagine I will find someone, or that someone will find me, or that this belief will change, or that it actually matters. I don't know whether I would want to or not. It just is no part of my life whatsoever. So yeah, unoriginal conundrums, predictable unresolved thoughts. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
8:10 pm	First performance of Les Miserables wasn't bad, though the throaty cough spreading around the cast is holding us back. I'm a complete glutton. Just ate three creme eggs. That is all. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
8:57 pm	Oscar Wilde. October 16, 1854 - November 30, 1900 "I know that when plays last too long, spectators tire. My tragedy has lasted far too long; its climax is over; its end is mean; and I am quite conscious of the fact that when the end does come I shall return as an unwelcome visitant to a world that does not want me." From a letter written from Reading Prison You wit is unmatched by many and your talent goes far beyond your days. You are good at what you do, though you tend to over-analyse and can be a bit longwinded. People love you for your quick wit and often miss you when you are not there to keep them entertained. You are enjoyed my many and disliked by few and those that do are probably just jealous. Never stop doing what you do. Never change. Which Classic Writer Are You? (With Pics) brought to you by Quizilla Cool. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
5:54 pm	Showtime. *deep breaths* Ooh crap, I'm nervous, but full of energy. I'm looking foreward to this. Am on stage in an hour and a half now doing 'Sweeney Todd'...wish me a broken leg, and the like. Oh and guys, if any of you are planning on coming on the door friday or saturday, get the number off me (or Mike) to book, because they've virtually sold out now. I'm now off to eat mints and sing and speak in my head. Current Mood: nervous (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
8:48 pm	Huzzah for stealing peoples posts. If you woke up, and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought..? (9 Comments |Comment on this)
8:47 pm	Your Seduction Style: The Dandy You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations. Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories. It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you. You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone. What Is Your Seduction Style? (Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
11:11 pm	Today is not special. But today was pretty good. In that I did some shopping, which I never ever do, and I got some really good deals. I got: Command and Conquer Red Alert 2 Heroes of Might and Magic 3 Worms Armageddon (all for PC) Schotts Original Miscellany The Da Vinci Code Angels and Demons Catch-22 Nineteen Eighty-Four ...all for a total of £5. Ahh, the result of hoarding 3 years worth of birthday and christmas gift vouchers, and then still not spending them all... In other news, the three days spent lounging around at Mikes was good. Singing along to all of The Nightmare Before Christmas was good fun. Must do some work this holiday, but really can't be arsed. Therefore, *parties*. (5 Comments |Comment on this)